About truth

You say you are sad and that you have lost all your arguments ?

Truth doesn't exists. However we would like to catch it and represent it in our mind and share this representation. That's what all religions try to explain. Buddhism says that all things are impermanent, it means that nothing can be catched, kept and possessed, even an idea, even buddhism. Buddhists fall very often into a static non representation which is also an image.

Muslims said exactly the same thing when they ordered not to represent any image of allah, but what they miss in the present is that bigot submission to any commandment is equivalent to the adoration of an image.

Christian are not better : they were told initially not believe in nothing than "be present" (Jahve).

This is the problems of all religions : ancient words have loose their sense and the message is lost because not living and incarnated anymore.

If you try to just be present, you'll see it is difficult and that immediately, one second after, you are beginning to believe in something else that represents it. So it's human and not to be blamed !

Hope is the last trap for the helpful heart minded people. Understanding is an intimate process, and the best gift that can be made to another person is to let him discover it. Usage of force, either emotional, intellectual or physical does not help.

Argument itself is out of the way. It enforces attachment to representations. Keeping in touch with reality is the challenge.

This message is just a gentle suggestion ;-) originally written for a desperate heartful person.

The prison revisited.

Men are like masons that build their own house with no doors and stay inside, adding new bricks and painting them with interpretations and imaginations of the outside. They just have a little hole to look outside, but they use it very rarely. In the ancien times it was only a cavern but this is not a major change.

Most crafty of them have set a door that can only be opened from the outside, letting new informations enter under sufficient pressure...

More lucids one are trying to get out of this, but all they know is to add new bricks and paint them. All they could do was to consolidate the prison, putting brighter representations on the walls.

One of them asked a wise man what he could do to escape. The wise men suggested to his new disciple to stop painting the bricks. But he could'nt restrain himself, and instead he covered all bricks by the words of the wised man, loosing the sense, no need to explain why.

The wise man knew that the bricks could become translucid but as he kept on painting them continuously, the disciple could not really know that.

"Why do you need to paint or write continuously ?" asked the wised man,
"Can't you put down your paintbrush just a few seconds ?"

It was difficult for the disciple to stop painting, writing or adding new bricks, because he could'nt imagine that there would be any other possibility. Moreover, he felt it was a risky business, just like instantaneously dying. There should be a good reason for everything. May be the open space was icy, brutal and windwept. May be starving monsters were wandering around. Old stories and obscure frightening memories were whispering to his mind that the open space paradise was definitely lost a long time ago, and were suggesting that it is a justified punishment.

But one day, as the wise man was insisting, crossing the barrier of all his fears, he decided to try.

Then he was very surprised to see that all bricks became translucid and were just about to disappear, the paintbrush still in his hand.

Feeling happy, he decided to paint this immediately.

Know yourself...

Know yourself, and you will know your real ennemy. The one that makes you believe in so many "things", and keeps you fascinated. Fascination is the only prison.

Blog fascination
Geek fascination
Internet fascination
Image fascination
Games fascination
Weapon fascination
Destruction fascination
Car fascination
Sex fascination
Gay fascination
Speed fascination
Cosmos fascination
Money fascination
Love fascination
Conspiration fascination
War fascination
Justice fascination
Religion fascination
Science fascination
Books fascination
Power fascination
Leader fascination
Devil fascination
Revolution fascination
Beauty fascination
Unsecurity fascination
Ecological fascination
Math fascination
Physics fascination
Passion fascination
Celebrity fascination
Fun fascination
Hero fascination
Mystic fascination
Self fascination
Wisdom fascination
Freedom fascination
... and many other fascinations ...

There is a subtil mix of all these fascinations that makes your own...

Ancient hero said "men are drunk" because fascination like alcohol is only a way to escape reality.

Just try to stay here. Then you will begin to really learn.

Meta-light meditation

Meta-light that is nor light nor obscurity is the real source of space and spirit. I't can't be experienced except by springing out of it. It's a hidden place where the soul can regenerate by softly landing and taking off again.

An agnostic's prayer

God, let the power of love full my mind of peace toward all people and reconciliate. Let me find the enligtened way to go beyond your illusory tyrannic realm.
Let a present occur without restriction in the silent freedom of calm inner space.

Commercial and technical dilemna, death and the structural bug!

Hello dear readers, in fact I don't know how many you are. But you don't know who I am, and this is pure justice ;-)

I had a funny dream last nigth... you think this man is crazy and uncurable, you may be true, but no more than you and I'll give you the proof !

This dream was interesting because it was a common situation in modern companies who make benefits out of "high tech". And as we lack myths that fit the "modern" intellect, I decided to make one of it.

One upon a time there was a commercial manager that wanted to agree with the programmer team about the status of bugs in software, and the possibility to shorten the delay between the discovery of the bug and their resolution. Of course, the whole company was challenged and the bonus and carreer of all individuals was depending on the rules that were going to be defined, and also depending on their capacity to follow them, unless the story wouldn't have any interest at all !

It was impossible for them to agree. First, the commercial team wanted the speed resolution of bugs to be accelerated regardless of the complexity of the bugs. Quickly programmers and commercial began to agree somewhat that there was different levels of complexity, and that sometimes the delay would be longer. But after a while, a dead lock occured. Experimented programmers refused to make a clear definition of what is an easy bug, and experimented commercials abandonned the discussion with a vague feeling of fatality. I realized suddenly the source of the misunderstanding, but the meeting was closed, because the passion had raised too high and nobody wanted to continue.

The more complex a bug is, the more time programmers take to discover it, and the longest is the life time of the bug. There are some particular bugs that are never correctly solved, except if the whole underlying system or hardware is fully redesigned. I call them "structural bugs". When such a bug occurs, its lifetime is the lifetime of the underlying technology, because the cost for solving it is unacceptable by commercial people, or it would break down the usability of the product. And every experimented programmer have met this situation one day. Before such a bug falls into the responsability of a real recognized expert that can correctly explain its status, many people will have tried one after the other to solve the unsolvable and had made nightmares out of it. So in fact, many programmers have experienced such a situation with various levels of criticity or complexity depending of their own knowledge and role.

This is what I call the programmers trauma. End users have a similar feeling when they reach the limits of their technological gadgets, or when they suffer from strutural bugs, some of their desires never being satisfied by the product they have chosen.

It is only the end of the commercial life of the product that will allow a new one to be designed, the structural bugs to be cleared out, and a new perfect software to be dreamed. Marketing people have the role to make people believe that the next generation product will be natively "trauma free" with no structural bugs.

In my dream there was a guy who accepted to listen to me after the meeting but he smile to me gently, considering defeatively that nobody would never accepted to hear the truth, each one having a vital pression of productivity in their work. (and you know that it's true, don't you ?).

This is the high point : there is a link between the vital problematic and the commercial products structural bugs. Only the death can make evolution possible. Replacement of old products by new products, old generations by new generations.

Everybody lives with the contradiction of the company meeting myth in its mind : our personality is based on the feeling of eternity and there are some main structural bugs that reveal themselves when time is passing. This is why such meetings can become really tragic in fact ! And the company roles are represented in our inner psychological world (commercial, programmer, expert, marketing, publiscist end user, ...), each one having a preferred one in normal life.

This preferred role is the one that helps us the best to believe that death will never occur. The ultimate expert is the one that can drop the fear of death and accept both the impermanence of all things and is able to downgrade the personality to a practical tool to enjoy life better.

Several considerations can follow :

1. This is why we are all fools. I promised to give you the proof !
2. This is one of the hidden reasons of the success of consumption society and the underlying companies organization : it creates scenes where the personal drama can identify itself and try to exorcise.
3. We try unconsciously to hide our real existential condition to our children, because we want them to have a strong personality that will not suffer, and more obscurely, because we want them to believe in us, and also because the lie gives us some power over them (see previous post about generations).

So :
1. Accept that you are a fool,
2. Remember that the mechanism of the consumption society will never help you,
3. Reconciliate with your mortal condition so that your children won't be fooled too much.

Next step, it could be interesting to clarify how your preferred role intricates with you fear... If you dare ! So you'd become an expert too ;-))

A way to reality across generations ?

To feel participating completely to the human "model" allows love and compassion to have their way, and eliminates the need of time. It's a sort of cross-time experience. No feeling of loosing anything, no fear of death, no need of power. That's what can be found if you persevere. But it is a difficult "no-step" to accomplish. Something resists.

Our gordian knot (see previous post) can survive because of the belief that something is to be found... in the future (near or far), something that will allow us to be in the present, just what we are, because we really want to feel the cross time-experience. But there is nothing to be found, everything is already there. That is the most difficult point to accept entirely in all parts of our mind and body.

This is the result of education, that contains many repressive means (hyper moralism, sexual repression, humiliations, punishments, constraint,...). Repression is needed by the older generation to keep the power. The basis of repression is to make believe the child (you or me in the past) that there is one vital crisis situation in which he (us) is responsible. This frighten us, so that we can't feel anymore allowed to stay "naturally" in the state of the human model cross-time experience. This push us "out" in the time, searching continuously for one basic way to re-open the door of this basic participating.

Everybody knows that. You know that. Take a few seconds to remember...

So how could we have accepted to be pushed out of the reality ? This is the education trick that makes us believe that there is something mysterious and better to find ... The mystery of sex, of prestige, of fortune (SPF). Honestly, theses magics are very unclear, aren't they ? But the power of fear and obscurity is big, and it works because of the weakness that obscurity reveals inside us.

And because we are too ignorant (that's true, isn't it ? there is no specific knowledge to BE ;-)), we'll need to learn living in accordance to commonly shared conditions that will allow us to feel participating to the preliminaries of a never coming inner reconciliation. This the conditioning (and exactly the story of Jacob and Esaü in the occidental religious traditions) .

All these mechanisms are reinforced by exagerate needs of power through SPF that some people have, due to traumatic and extreme experiences (physichal or psychological, hidden or visible) during their childhood (in most cases they don't even remember). A very few number of persons consciously WANT it to be that way and choose to build the empires of repression. Don't go that way, or you'll die miserably and unreconciliated.

So, be honest, accept that you don't "respect" yourself all the time, and consider that it is not a good reason to be irrespectuous with other people, and particularly children. Give them what they need, primarily love, so that they can live the fundamental complete experience, and better, a way out of obscurity and useless mystery that will arise inevitably in their minds, when they meet the world and our own difficulties.

On the other hand, remember there is no reason to feel guilty because all that began thousand of million years ago ... just relax and let your eyes open, let your mind open, let your heart open. Let be.